12 WEEKS OUT
Well I am officially just under 12 weeks until I get my sparkly bikini back on and try to fit my feet into those high heels. Bendigo Classic is just a warm up for me and my coach to see what improvements I need to make for Las Vegas. I also need the practice on stage as I still don't enjoy it and the more I do it, I'm hoping the easier it becomes.
So how am I feeling? To be honest, this prep has not been the best. Yes, I go through the motions, train and eat exactly as on plan. Why am I struggling? I think my heart is just not in it this time. Why? I don't actually know! Am I going to quit, hell no. I made a commitment to myself and I will not give up. I love the continuous challenge and this being more difficult, makes it even more exciting. I have to dig deeper, I have to find my inner strength, I have to fight the negative demons. Failing is not an option.
There has been hurdles but each time, I jump higher. I'm a 45 year old with an amazing life and nothing really to complain about. I have my dream business, my health, an amazing family and small group of friends. I appreciate what I have and never take anything for granted. Too many people that I know don't have half of what I have and they still manage to smile.
Competing is such a small part of my life, it's a hobby, my lifestyle. I have learnt so much about myself through the last 5 years and it has made me a better human and trainer. I truly believe that if you want something in life, you need to change what you are doing. For me, I needed to change. Competing saved me.
Mindset is everything. If you don't have that sorted, nothing will work. I practice positivity every day, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't but I'm still over here ploughing on through. I have 13 weeks until I compete at Amateur Olympia, the biggest contest of my life and I for one, will stand up there knowing I did the best I possibly could. Win or lose, I did it.
Onwards and upwards and let's see how the next few weeks span out. Come on body, let's get lean!